Frustrated

I have been seriously procrastinating from doing any making. I have now started and it feels great, but I wake up on days like today (one of the only two I have off a week, like almost everyone) and I have to go and sit downstairs instead of going to the beach. And my friends are all going to the beach, or hanging out, or asking me to do things. So I mope around and feel sorry for myself, and then suddenly its 5pm.
I recently had someone challenge me and say, well, maybe you don't REALLY want to do jewellery then?
And I thought, gosh, I hope that's not true, and I'm just the last one to find out.
But I think, it's that i don't want to do jewellery in my TIME OFF. On the two days where I don't HAVE to be at work, where I don't HAVE to go anywhere or do anything...except for my jewellery.
I know this is an issue a LOT of people face, doing what they enjoy in their spare time, and trying to make it work, but I don't think that that point negates the fact that it is EXTREMELY frustrating at times like this.
People will say...but you're doing what you love so it should be just like you spending your time doing something you enjoy?
Yes, but I also enjoy having time to see my friends, to read a book, to go for a day trip to the beach, to sleep in til midday and have breakfast in bed, to go out for coffee or lunch, to go for a walk in a new location.
So then I think...okay, I need to figure out how to make this jewellery thing work....how will I generate some income, while still hand making my stuff, without having to make 100 of the same thing....and I'm back to square one because I don;t really know.

Or I DO know.....but there are just SO many options out there, since there is no one direct path for this....its not...study, graduate, enter at bottom level position, work way to the top...ta da...successful career....there are so many options and so many paths I could take....so do I just start somewhere and see what happens? make some mistakes along the way and learn from them? I guess I do...but there are so many things I want to do, and I don't know where to start....and this 'I don't know' feeling is very overwhelming, and leaves little room for much else, let alone positive enthusiasm and motivation.

I do a Business of Arts course in a week, and I am hoping that this will give me some sort of ideas, clarify some things for me, extend my knowledge. Fingers crossed!!!!!

Adios for now....off for a 20km bike followed by a short run, then breakfast then down to my bench!!!!!