We Live in a Vulnerable World

http://www.ted.com/talks/lang/eng/brene_brown_on_vulnerability.html

I found the above talk while roaming around on The Big Idea website.
I really liked it.
I do exactly what she talks about. I'm terrible with emotions. I know it. I don't cry unless I'm having a break down or I'm so tired I don't know what else to do. Maybe thats not so abnormal.
Anyway, I do the whole 'I don't want to feel this way so I'm just going to numb it and stop feeling this particular feeling' and it really hit home when she said you can't selectively numb emotions. I had a wee think about it and it seems true. It appears feasible. It makes sense. So to be truly happy, I have to feel all the crap stuff too....but that's just part of being human. And its part of being human that should be celebrated.
Easier said than done folks.
But I'll give it a try aye?

She also said that every human strives for connectivity. And feeling vulnerable makes us shy away from situations because we feel as if we will damage connections already made or that we want to make. This also seems so true. And feasible. I look at my actions and why I DON'T do things....and usually its because I don't want o be embarrassed, or for someone to think something different of me. To not be accepted. Yet the things we do that set us apart make us who we are. And make us better people, and the more authentic we are to who we are, the more people we can connect with.

Gah!

My work is ALL about connections and I think its interesting to relate my making to this stage in my life. I'm growing up, I'm meeting new people, I'm trying to find myself, to figure out who I am and what makes me me and to accept and love myself for it,  and perhaps thats manifesting itself in my work...without me even intending it to :)