Dilemma-Ville

I'm having a dilemma moment. A lot of little things all piling up are just getting to me and i feel STUCK and I don't know what to do. 

I'm struggling to find harmony in the spaces I have set up to work in at home.

I have gone from having a space that I was comfortable in and that had EVERYTHING I needed in it, to having a disjointed space where my creativity is struggling to flow. 

It is a bit of a dilemma. 

I can't afford to hire a studio out, and the only desk space I have available is in my bedroom, and my bench is downstairs in the garage. So i have to work in my bedroom (not ideal!) and then go up a flight of stairs and through two rooms to go between the two spaces, when I'm used to just having to turn around on the spot! 

I know there will be people out there who say "oh youre not applying yourself hard enough, you shodu lbe more dedicated. MAKE it happen!" and I'd love to, but there is SO much to be said for having a creative space where thoughts flow freely and you are inspired to make just by simply being in that room/space.

I currently am struggling to get into the assignments  I have written for myself, and perhaps it's a lot more to do with lacking a constructive work space than a lack of motivation.

I'm starting to itch to get making but I need to buy new solder and a new hearth and I need hammers and draw plates and doming blocks and types of pliers and etc etc etc. And working less than 20 hours a week at my part-time job doesn't really lead to much excess money after such things as petrol, gym membership, presents for friends, and life in general. 

Job hunting is proving to be an extremely fruitless effort. I don't hear back from anything I apply for. It's the most frustrating thing in the world! My current job isn't taking me anywhere or teaching me anything thats going to help with my dream (don't think I've put The Dream up here yet...will do so next!) and its not even offering me enough hours to be able to justify it as a decent source of income.

Sigh

Its the catch-22 isnt it.

I need to start making so I can start selling my work and entering competitions and for my exhibition and generating an income, but I need some funds/materials/tools and a creative space to do so.

My overdraft and credit card accounts don't give me the best credentials when it comes to asking for a loan. And I don't want to go further into debt (lets not even MENTION the student loan) than I already am.

Life - sigh! 

Anyway, get on with it right?

I'll upload The Dream :)